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She shaved most of her hair off. 

She's been wanting to do this for years, she says. 

It's another form of self-mutilation, I say.

I was there once. 

On the other hand, she seems stronger. 

PS - so sad to see the most gorgeous hair in the world

sharing room with used tea-bags and potato peels.

GAPS

The bath is nearly full to the brim. I stop the tap and walk out. Her bedroom door is ajar and through the little gap I see her face, she's hiding her body behind.
"Babe, the bath is full" 
She doesn't answer and waves her hand instead as if telling me to go. 
"What??" I exclaim I am Spanish after all. She does it again. 
What is wrong with her???  it's not like I haven't seen her naked before! 
And just as I am about to walk I freeze.
"Are you cutting again?????????!!!!!!"

One step forward 10 steps back.
I am going to bed.

HEAR NO EVIL

"Mum please! do you know the balls it took for me to tell you???"
I storm out of the bathroom without looking back.
I sit on the sofa, wondering what the fuck I was thinking when I thought myself mature enough to bring a creature into this world. I  go back to the bathroom, hold her in my arms and whisper in her ear:
"I do, know… do you know the balls it takes to know and not do anything?"

To act and lose their trust so I can never help them or to keep quiet and risk seeing them sinking?
right answer: DO NOT HAVE CHILDREN.

50 per cent increase in teen depression in the past 6 years. 50 per cent... buy yourself a dog. Nobody wants to come to this world anymore and the last thing you want is to see your kid braking.